I Hate Sorry

But that's all I can offer

I’m sorry.
Sorry I couldn’t be the one for you.
Couldn’t understand your feelings —
Even though I did,
I just didn’t want to.

I cared about you.
I still do.
But somehow,
I lost you
Even when I never wanted to.

I don’t think
I could ever care about you
As deeply as you cared about me.

And for that,
I am sorry.

Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.

That’s the only thing
I know how to give you now.

I know
You had no one
To share your pain with.
No one
To truly care about you.

I knew that,
And I still left.

I became so consumed with myself
That I forgot about you —
Your worries,
Your loneliness,
Your silent cries.

And now all that remains is this:

“I am sorry.”

Funny how it became
The one phrase
I grew to hate the most.

Yet for you,
It’s the only thing
I have left to offer.